fuck a lot has gone down an a lot will go down. but i guess ill start by turning off the tv, never minds its over -its ending is playing very ghay music i cant stand.
anyhoo, for anyone hoo reads this is a filter and cut and extremly short explaination, coz the last one dint get far coz i was high on really really fuckin strong mush.

july 30th was my bday i turned seweeeeet 16.
the past 6 months of my life or more has just been gettin high then to getting higher and even more fucking high. then getting too high - as high as u were last time but even HIGHER! hahaha espacily since the summer. we moved into the ghetto urbs. just at the out skirts of downtown. yep the crackhead neighbour hood and the methadone clinic across from my new skool. drugs were everywhere and i could get just about everything! so i did everything. and i squeegied cars and pan handleed to get high. and wut can i say, drugs attracts drugs. i just walk down my home street and sum substance will jump out and intoxicate you! and wen ur high theres just this energty raideating off you and grabs the energy of other drugs, sumthing would always come my way and half the time free! i was living my life and loved every drop, every crystal, every waft of smoke. but summer dosnt last forever. i was a hiskool drop out from a hagmagged out hick skool. but now iwas to go to a better above average skool ironicly in the downtown area. untop of that i hav 4 credits or so and im a junkie. Druggiees just dunt do well in skool. but then again i never did really well in skool.
tonight was take back the nite (a feminest rally thingy) i dint want to go but my punk friend mare did for her pussy pride. but femnists piss the fuck outta me. but this sleaze bag i was with botherd me so i bout sum brown dolphine xtc and ditch him itno the femnist march and everybody told him to leave coz hes got a dick. so every time we walked by pigs(cops) and the tv reporters i yelled "DOWN WITH LAW ENFORCMENT AND DOWN WITH GOVERMENT!" and waved my squeege in the air and barked at everyone. then smoked weed. but it was also the night of the Bad Relgion and Dropkick Murpheys show! so i smashed sum xtc and snook into the show! past security and every thing! and rocked my fuckin heart out. gave sum ppl sum serious bruises. i only spelt lyke $4 bux on a patch. i felt so fullfilled.

and to top it all off the next day i /had/ to go to skool (u dunt know my ddad and bro) and i got kicked out! the second and a half week in september i was expelled! it was a sure record! i felt even more fulfilled.
but if my dad would fiond out hed beat me to the pulp and throw me out. so i dint tell him, i just left every mornihng and squeeged and smoked eveyrbodys weed at skool and continued with my ketamean addiction...
my dealers cut me off. becuse the way i did my k. but he always just said he ran out. but after i while of that i knew he was lying and i was cut. it was rare now. and i wanted it badly so i did a lot of acid instead. then i did a lot of acid went to a punk show and did an eightball of speed. I WAS FUCKED!!! didnt sleep for 6 days or so. i was so deeeeeeeeep. and expeirnced toadal nervana yet again. fullfillment.
i was livin toadal anarchy, i broke rules left and right up and down backwards and center. at the very least 5 laws a day. i was a very busy woman. and in toadal chaos. i was a 1 person riot or id have ppl join me in the rally. tho the punx are few where i live i manged to meet a few hardcore ppl. wether punx or not ive met sum awesum-possum ppl hoo just stand out and up in this world. even in a lil loser city lyke this. sum live here, sum just moved here, and sum were just travelin thro.

I was high strung and strung out. 80% the time i was under influence. and on a rampage. and in nirvana.
i feel lyke ive grown so much as a person. let me get u this striaght. im not a spiritual person, im a soulful person. im athiest.

i have soo many stories, crazy fucked up stories u wouldnt belive. but their true and intense way too intense but i lo0Ove it over the top! most of these stories are just too ghetto and illeagal and graffic to post here. im sure ill get banned if i told u all my drugged up stories. lets just say ive been thro a lot and did a lot.

so not to get in these graffic stories but in a nutshell i squeeged, got high, and broke and smashed thing. i gave this hickcity sum choas with sum close friends. got loads of fines to pay that will never get paid. got charged and arrested went to cellock. at least i can say i body checked a pig.i protested and and started our own very small revolution. pigs hate us here. just absoultly hate us.

speacily me and my best friend Kayrn. we get high together and brake things. shes on vert strict probation and i skipped court lol so i got off scott free.
i got a tattoo yay! a biohazard sign.

my cat got her surgeory. it was originaly a $780 sugeroy but we managed to talk them down to $275. it really cut into my drug habbit but Rinsku was and is worth it. so i got half clean. so i beacame a kleptomaniac in the meantime to keep me busy.
if she dint get her surgerory she would have died. now she recovering. so now im working getting on really dirty again. did a weed/mushroom/mdma binge. and did 2 dine and dashes in the past 2 weeks

STILL DUNT HAVE HOLD OF SCANNER!!!!!

so thats a cut/cleaned/not really rated version since june 30th.

****by teh way i dunt go by acid or acidian. i go by VarVulf the Vulf of Var. and im not a goddamned fucking furry artist! i draw WEREwolves. get it?!
~VarVulf